Just...Breath

I know the title is cheesy but its so true for those who know me understand. Since my last blog post many things have occurred but I am not going to put that all in this posting because seriously my life is crazy and should be a mini series.
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Time flies truly when fun happens, when sorrow happens and whatever emotion you want to throw in before "_____ happens." Cancer however yes it happens it happens to great and wonderful people. I really hate what cancer has done to my mother. She is fifty-six years old, her memory is so shot from the Gama Knife treatments and since her battle with death last year that even her rationalism has been tossed out.

At thirty-five years old I really never thought that I would be taking care of my parents. I knew from the experience I had taking care of my grandmother's Alzheimer's (before the state stepped in) and my husbands grandmother's Alzheimer's that the brain cancer my mother had would do some damage. Well, I can truly say not everyone is the same after their brain is messed with. My mom has such a hard time keeping on track its crazy and annoying but I handle it. I just remind myself its not her fault, I have to remind my dad to watch what he says because she takes everything he says to heart, I have to constantly keep myself focused on the fact that she needs to be constantly updated because she forgets, and of course I BREATH.

I tell all my friends, family and my children's friends that they should always step back from a crazy situation and just remind themselves to breath. If we do not take that opportunity clarity will elude us and our minds wonder off into a voided space of insanity. Once our brains miss this lack of oxygen we say things we will not be able to take back. We sometimes remove ourselves from the situation totally and think that someone else will deal with the problem. However, the problem is still there because even thought it was avoided its still there. So its best just to take five to ten seconds of real time to just breath deep and let it all out. Tackle that problem like our government should tackle the deficit (lol)

Nonetheless, I breath a lot more now and never walk away. To many people walk away and just let go of what their responsibilities to their love ones medical problems. I can not walk away from my parents even though life growing up with dysfunction parents was horrible, I realized that they did the best they could with how they were taught to be parents by their parents. I realized that my parents could have never decided to be married and so forth if that had happened....I wouldn't be here. I love being a parent, I love my parents even more now because I was allowed to be a parent to my three kids.

So again I breath, for sanity, for clarity, for the sake of breathing and because it necessary to walk the path that has been laid before me. I may not always agree, be happy with decisions, be happy with other people and their reactions to our current problems but I just remember to do the right thing by standing by my parents. OH AND BREATH!!!!